Reached That Moment

And I reached that moment....

Long ago.

I have grown weary of chasing after unattainable dreams, and people that only seem to bring you pain, rather than happiness.

These kinds of things only makes one waste their life.

I'm tired of bringing pain and hurt into my heart, to only have to silently suffer, while everyone else looks on, thinking that I'm the happiest person alive.

When, in all reality, I'm the furtherest thing from it.

That's when my 'mask' is my best assest.

The thing that keeps my true feelings hidden from the terrible grasp of the world.

So, being that I have reached that moment...

Or, so I did at one time...

I have realized that it is entirely possible to lose track of that discovery, and once again allow the old pain-causing people and things bother you again.

It is NOT pleasant.

So, I'm searching for that moment again. And, I'm hoping that I find it pretty dang soon.

Suffering sucks.